Life Update

Life is all about the journey to the land of happiness. Every time I dream about something I love, the urge to fully living the dream is really big. I always tell myself during highschool year. Do what makes you happy and pursue your dream even in your tertiary education.

Sometimes, life's sucks to the max. It can be bitter and sweet at the same time. It's the black and white of life and we just can't run from the norm of life. I'm in University now and I wonder how the hell I end up with something I really don't like back in highschool. Where's the dream? Where's the vision? I'm not living in the land of happiness. Am I doing it right? I don't want to live in regret.

I believe I'm living in a conflict of life. I'm fighting with time. Precious time to be spent with the things I love and the things I had to do right now. I consider myself as a person who close to the nature. I just love to sit down and be a keen observer. Be alone and listen to some calm music. This process will lead to my inner maturity. Hey, I'm still a normal person. I still love women, good food and hanging out with my buddies.

I've been a little bit far away from my dream track. But I hold tight this philosophy, "good things take time". I just need to wait for the moment to come. I won't stop till I get what I want. Till then.

Fin.

It has begun.

So it's been a month after registration day. I am now officially a university student. Universiti Tenaga Nasional to be precise or we simply called it Uniten. I'm taking foundation in Engineering and I'll be studying at the main campus in Kajang. The fun fact about my campus is the name is Uniten Campus Putrajaya while the address is in Kajang while technically the campus situated in Bangi, Selangor. So, where's should I refer to? Haha. There's another Uniten which situated at Muadzam Shah, Pahang. This entry will summarize the whole month while I was here.

The registration day was on 18th May 2013. I woke up quite early as I spent most of my time staying up late and waking up quite late during the holiday. We drove to Uniten and surprisingly there were already a lot of people there. There were some facilitators giving directions and stuffs to the people who just came to the Admin Building to register. There're so many students in the building. New students for foundation and transfer credit student and also degree students were there at the registration day. Of course I waited for quite a while to get done all this stuffs as there was some networking problem at shit.

After registered and got my ID and settling my accommodation, I went to my apartment. Putting everything in the cupboard and rest for a while. It was a hectic day indeed. There was a programme at 6 and my parents left me 2 hours before. The next day was the orientation day. It was a typical orientation where the facilitators bullied us. Doing childish dance and stuffs was really not my thing. The only thing I love during orientation was singing the official orientation song, Langkah Pertama and the official Uniten song. The songs was energetic!

The orientation ended after 5 days. I went back to Melaka after that as the class only started after the new sem which was on 27th May. To cut the story, my housemates are okay. They're funny but not the way I want. They're not sharing the same interest as me. They even condemn the songs I listened which was hardcore genre. Other than that, they're cool beans and funny! Supposedly we should have 4 people in a house but this fella was out from the house right after the orientation. I don't give a damn about him to be honest.

Classes. I have 5 subject for this trimester which are Calculus, Physics, English, Computing Skills and Physics Lab. Different class, different venue. I had to go to BA, BN, BM, BL to attend the lectures. They are code for building just in case if you don't know about it. The lecturers are okay. They're not too fierce or something. They just okay except my English lecturer is one of the cutest creature on earth. She's so fair and cute! I always looking forward for her lecture hehe.

The food is okay. The taste is eat-able and the price is okay for me but it could be cheaper in my opinion. I'm not trying to be cheapskate but the cafe at College of Information Technology (CoIT) is ridiculously expensive. I can't event brain when the price for small amount of rise with some vegetable excluding drink is about RM7. It is way too killing price for students. The environment in Uniten is nice. There is a large man-made lake in front of Ilmu apartment and at the back of Masjid. The building inside the campus is also nice. recently they just did a paint job at COE and made the building looked newer.

My main target of becoming a university student is to strike a flying colour result in exams. Other than that, I would really love to train myself to be a leader and someone who actually can communicate well with other people. I recently just passed the interview to be the crew for one of the biggest event in Uniten. #Unitengua is self-belonging campaign towards universities initiated by Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar UNITEN. They did called some live bands and some fashion enthusiast to fill the event agenda. Beingthe crew under live performance especially managing my favourite band, Kyoto Protocol is really meant to me as I really wanted to organize a gig and this is one way I can learn how to.

Don't forget to mark 5th July 2013 on your calender to catch your favourite and get stoked with Diandra Arjunaidi, Oh Chentaku and Kyoto Protocol! They gonna heat up the atmosphere of P. Ramlee at Dewan Seri Sarjana, Uniten Bangi. Don't forget the theatre and fashion show as well. This event is gonna be hyped!

I'm proud to be Unitenian. Life's good and for sure I'm gonna study my ass off and also join many activities to train my soft skills. I hope I can change to be a better person. InsyaAllah!

It's happening. Now and then.

Hi. How you guys doing? Good? Haha, that's a typical routine for Fify Azmi when posting a keek. Lately, keek has been invading the whole social world. Maybe not everybody actually have a keek account but trust me, that thing is a viral. People start to post their random stuff in the form of video within 36 seconds. There are some pros and cons about this new social app in my humble opinion. People will start exposing their personal activities and privacy is no longer an option but on the brighter side, I can see some cute girls with their fluffy face and milky voice. At least it shine up my fragile emotion rather than I end up crying and killing inside my soul which is happening right now. In a nutshell, it's all about perspective. Certain people will find it okay but some is the other way round. Like my friend always said, 'masing-masing'.

Enough regarding keekin' matter. Lets talk something beneficial. As you guys already know I just finished my high school. I did got my result and it was okay for some people but not me. I regret a chuck of my life for not studying very well as I know I can do better than that. Because of it, I didn't apply any scholarship even though there're some scholar that meet my little requirement. I feel like I don't deserve any of them because there're a lot of people who struggle even more than me deserve that. There goes my plan to study abroad to feel the different surrounding. Maybe it's a sign for me that I'm not ready yet. I'm not mature enough to be thrown overseas. Let put in several years for me to adapt myself in this real world as I'm just entering the phase man! Then if there's a chance for me, I'll use it to travel the world like I always craving for it.

My friends and I are no longer high school students. Most of us already reached 18 y/o and that's a point for us to put our sense of thinking to the next level. We should be matured on making decision. Talking about it, recently one of my friend that shared the same passion and glory just made up his mind to do something silly! I believe his bad side of feeling and emotion have conquer his mind. Come on man, it's all about one night and one fucking gig and you decided to ruin this friendship? What about our passion and goals? Our dreams in the scene and so on. Lets put this thing straight, you're the one who started to isolate yourself and commits some short-and-sharp-so-called-luahan-perasaan. To be honest your words are sharp and just not make any sense to us! If you're reading this, you know I never want this thing to happen. It's just not right to live the life with this current situation. 

Godspeed You! Black Emperor. The gig is rare. The only gig in Southeast Asia and it happened here in Malaysia. But, too bad I can't made it to the show. As an unemployed teenager, throwing RM200 just like that for a ticket is not worth it bro even I'm dying to see this band for the passion towards post-rock/ambient music. I need to live! and money is not coming out just like that Looking to the bright side, I can go many other hc gig. It's my passion too.

It's been a while after my last post and don't really have ideas to write. Till then, Bye!

Crude for life!

Fucking Dilemma

Everybody have their own passion and some people have more than one passion. How could they manage to recover all stuffs even when the stuffs clash with one another. I mean, you just can't pick one of it because it's your passions. You love both and stuck in this fucking dilemma to choose between this fucking stuffs. I bet every people would be miserable thinking of it. Trying to find the best solution for themselves. For this fucking moment, I'm in a deep shit for not knowing which path should I take and what should I do to make everyone's happy. My principle of life is easy. If you let other people happy then you should earn the same thing. But how on earth should I solve this matter? This weekend we are supposedly to be at kemensah to try out the race track but there's no happy moment yet. The clash occurs here when my parents ask me to follow them on a vacation. I was like why on earth they didn't tell me in advance about this thing? I already planned the kemensah stuff for so long. I'm not going to lose that chance but they are my family and family should come first. Hmm one unsettled problem aside. Three weeks ahead, the actual race day is going to be happened. And once again I'm in the fucking dilemma. Supposedly the race is on 3rd February but the briefing is on a day before the race day. What the fuck? Mull; Debauch is on 2nd February. I hate this fucking clash between times.  It's okay for me to join the briefing and go to KLPac right after it but you know what? That fucking briefing is until fucking 6pm and yet I'm going to miss the opening for the gig as it's going to start at 2pm. Fuck this shit. Help me bacause it's killing me inside thinking the best solution for everyone.

It starts now. It's on you.

Assalamualaikum. As you guys know that I'm taking pure science in school and the examination for us meets the end quite faster than other students taking another course. So, since 27th November 2012. I'm no longer a school boy. I mean I don't to spend my time driving to the middle of town to stuck my self in a school. That's really something as I waited that moment for my entire life. For 11 years I spent my time with books, pens, rulers and now I don't have to do that for a little while. I still remember the moment when the head invigilator said the time for answering Biology paper 3 had ended. What a fucking relief! I felt like screaming inside of me.

It has been 3 days after I finish my role as high school student. I don't know what to do other than spending my time with my friends until 3 to 4 am and wasting my time rolling on the bed without having a bath. I mean, I need to do something productive. I need to find a job. At least I can collect some money so that I can cover the expenses for entertainment and such. I'm not being choosy but I just want a job that really suit me. Having a job behind the scene would be perfect for me. I don't want a job that really exposing, require me to face a lot of people and talking about something that's not real. So right now I am officially a jobless person as my wallet is getting thinner.

As my joy plan getting bigger, Airasia without a notice just open the application for cadet pilot. This is really frustrating moment for me as the pre-requisite is SPM result. How the fuck on earth I want to fill the application? I wont gamble my life with fill in with false information. I just need to hope that the application is still available for me after I obtain the result. Flying colours result I hope. Talking about cadet pilot, Cathay Pacific or CX just launched a new website for cadet pilot programme. If selected, training will be done at FTA (Flight Training Adelaide) and will be appointed as Second Officer for CX conducting ultra long haul or long haul flight as cruise pilot. Wow, that's just a brilliant opportunity. If I got selected as one of their cadet, I have to settle down at Hong Kong. Life's great right? But I know it's not easy for me to get that. At least I'll try my best and submit my application for CX after my 18th birthday.

I hope my plan, my will is right. I want to be the man I ought to be. Listen, why would you do something that you don't really enjoy and love doing that thing and end up yourself suffer because you can't have a heart with your job. I can't imagine if I have to work in the office 9to5 regular basis. OMG. I hope it wont happen to me. I want to be a pilot because the career prospect really reflect the thing I love. I mean, I love money, travelling and also flying. Doesn't it enough to tell that I have a strong passion toward this career? I believe If I got the opportunity to become one of the man flying in the sky, I would never turn back. That's really a life changing for me.

As for that, it's really challenging and the competition is damn too tight. Everybody are so eager to be a pilot and I need a backup plan if I fail to be one. Of course I need to continue my studies. But the question is what course should I pick? My head is already set that I'm going to do business but at the same time, I want to do Aeronautical Engineering or Aircraft Maintenance. Hmm, I wonder which career prospect give me the opportunity to become rich because you know, money is everything. Without it, you can't even survive in a metropolitan city. Even girls look at your wealth. How do you gonna have a perfect life if you don't have one?

The reason why I started to write is because I felt very frustrated about people who act like childish and never care about other people feeling. You know, some people might have a sensitive and fragile heart so every words every assumption could offend the person. Can't you just thing the ugly consequences when you attempt to talk something. Don't because of your words, war is created. I always remind my self that don't you ever talk bad about other people even though you know about it. But sometimes, as a normal person, I accidentally spurt out the negative words to the person because they're so annoying and irritating.

Till then. I don't have any ideas what to write anymore because I'm hungry and the brain can't function properly. Thanks and goodbye.

Justice

Life must go on. But life is not fair. Not every inch of it. Everything is needed to be justices. When it comes to justify whether the person is proven guilty or not, the lawyer and judge play the most important role. This is my first appearance in the court. 

September last year I had an accident. The accident occurred between me and the other uncle. We got few stitches and wound but both of us are now perfectly fine and healthy. So, the day has come. Everything is going to be corrected. We're now fighting. Metaphorically speaking  about trying to get money. Both of us are trying to get a proper answer base on the evidence about the accident. Just to make sure the accident is worth every blood shed. 

The court is very complicated. Even though my case is only a small case and nothing fancy about it. But, there are hell a lot of people like me. Cases like accident, shame and so on. The moment I'm writing this post, I'm still waiting to be called to enter the court. Hmm, but I hope everything is gonna end here because it's really tired. Till here, Salam.

Annoying Kid is Annoying

"They are still kids", "They know nothing". Yeah right, that's the common thing that I'll hear from people. Kids are annoying. They just did that for attention. Can't you be cool all the time? Nah, don't get me wrong. I like kids, but not that kind of kids who like to make me mad all the time and will interrupt my work. God knows I'll fucking rage.

Maybe some people will bash me because they'll think that I was like other kids back then. Sorry for disappointing you, but my mum said that I'm very cool during my toddler stage. I'm not crying for no reasons and I always be cool. Cool indeed for a little kid? LOL.

I don't know how I'm going to react when my future childs will be like this. I hope they will be like me. Sounds easy and organized. If not, be prepared for my hot-tempered and embrace yourself. Poor my little child, I hope I can change and be a better person. It will be easy for me to understand more about kids. Or, just don't do it, kids :)